Friday, November 12, 2010

Two Years

I miss it everyday
In every possible way
Two years well spent
How fast they came and went!

I miss Them all the time
Even if they gave me Mayo with lime!
I wish I was still there
Then life would not so err

I miss how I used to feel
The spirit was oh so real!
A white shirt and an ugly tie
My best friend by my side

I miss the miracles I saw
How I could speak with no flaw
And life was so blissful and right
Now I have to use all my might

I miss it everyday
In every possible way
Two years well spent
Others don’t know how much they meant

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Taboo

When Dan woke up that morning he had no intention of dying.  He stopped by his favorite coffee shop on his way to class.  A caramel mocha with sprinkles, this last month he had discovered coffee and liked it.  Dan knew the sprinkles didn’t change the taste at all, but they looked cool.   That’s the kind of guy Dan was, he was spontaneous, easily distracted and he loved psychological experiments.  His whole life was an experiment now.   He had come from a very close nit family, a very conservative family.  His father and mother had met at college, and they had secured Dan a spot there as well.  And as the obedient oldest child he had gone there.  So he made his way to his class that morning hoping no one would notice his coffee.  If asked he was going to have to answer that it was coffee, which didn't bode to well.  You see coffee was taboo at this college, and that was Dan’s experiment this month.  Taboology as he called it.  He wanted to see just how far he could push the bubble in the very conservative and very republican school, well the whole town was as a matter of fact.  His dark blond hair was longer then he liked, but that was all part of the act.  As was his new wardrobe, black and gray…gray and black.  Now the affect he was going for wasn’t to appear gothic, but rather to appear more liberal.  That was Dan’s favorite word for doing taboo things here.   Being liberal.  So with his now cooling coffee he sat in the back of his poetry class.  Today was the culmination of a month’s preparation and of acting a part.  He was about to shove dynamite down his classmate’s throats and laugh at their reaction.  Well that’s what he had envisioned doing.  He had even thought to write an article about it.
            Entitled “Taboo”, this poem was the ultimate form of rebellion that an English student had.  He smirked to himself when the teacher asked for volunteers to have their poems read aloud.  Dan raised his hand, the clear polished nails glittered a little in the light making Dan cringe.  Not even he liked that, but alas it was part of the liberal character that he was playing.
            “Dan.  Great, who do you want to read your poem?”  The teacher asked happy to see someone putting himself out there to be critiqued by the class. 
            Dan scanned the room, then seeing his target he selected the most uptight girl in the class, whom he was actually quite fond of.  “Shelley? Would you?” He asked politely. 
            From behind him and to the left he heard a whispered scoff.  “Of course he picks a girl…queer.”  It made Dan smile to himself, so his acting was paying off.  His girlfriend Samantha would like that one.
            Shelley arose and smiled softly at Dan and took his poem from his outstretched hand.  His heart started to race.  Here it comes.
            Shelley started, “Taboo…” She read the title.  Then with a sharp intake of breath she glanced up at Dan, who nodded to reassure her.  “Umm…” her cheeks became a crimson color. “Taboo…In the dark absence of light/My heart takes flight…” then red faced and stuttering she read poetry that seemed more the creation of Anne Rice then that of a conservative religious student.  With every line the descriptions became more crude and disgusting.  Taboo as described in graphic detail.  Sex, drugs, atheism and just about everything else that Dan could think of to piss off everyone in the class was included.  He laughed at himself when the teacher stood before the poem was finished and ripped the paper out of Shelley’s hands.
            “That is quite enough!” He protested like a catholic nun.  Then there was silence…utter silence in the class.
            Now it was time for Dan to observe the effect his poem and his month of acting would have.  He felt eyes on him.  Angry eyes.  He smiled to himself.  “And so it begins…” he whispered to closed ears.

            Ten o’clock that night Samantha and Dan made their way to a party.  Dan had hoped he could leave the act at home that night, today was Samantha’s birthday and they were going to have a great time.  But when Dan had heard who was going to be at the party he had stopped by the store to pick up a 6-pack of Budweiser.  He didn’t drink the stuff, wasn’t much of a beer guy.   Samantha had chuckled and asked, “So when is this experiment going to end?”
            “Well, I had the poem read this morning…well most of it. Dr. Thatch wouldn’t let Shelley finish it! I had thought to end it then, but this is just too good to ask for.  Don’t worry babe come morning I will go get a haircut and I will be the old me again.”
            She laughed again “Good! I’ve missed you babe… I bet the poem was good.”
            “After tonight it’s all just observe and laugh.”  Dan paid for the beer and they made their way to the party.
            They walked into the party and the music almost stopped.  Everyone stared at Dan.  He leaned and said to Samantha, “Looks like the rumors are spreading already.  Amazing how that happens at a school with over thirty thousand students!”
She just laughed; her long brown hair fell into her line of sight.  Dan brushed it away and gave her a quick peck on the lips.  She would get her birthday kiss later.  She smiled softly.
            “Oh he’s just doing that so we think he’s not gay!” a religious jock yelled from the crowd.  Religious jocks are what Dan referred to as mindless bible heads that wore shirts like they were in a pride parade.  Closed-minded folk.  He was sure they were a little confused about their own sexuality.
            The real Dan came through the act a little, “Fuck you!” then he laid a big wet kiss on Samantha and there was a nervous laugh from half the crowd.
            “What did you just say you little A-hole?” the clearly stronger man shot back.  So there was going to be more to this.  Dan liked how this was unfolding, perfect for an essay.  It showed the ignorance and hatred that taboo caused.
            “A-hole? I believe its ass hole…or wait do you not swear?”  Dan asked in a mocking voice.  He turned from Samantha’s beautiful but disapproving smile and towards the guy who would be the focal point of his write up about this whole experiment.  He turned right into a large fist that knocked him on his back.
             A little dazed he tried to get up, but the other man was on him with flying fist.  Dan tried to bring his hands up block the punches but others grabbed them.  He was pulled to his feet.  Samantha was screaming at them to stop.  They didn’t. 
            “Lets show this little rebel what happens to those who rebel against what’s right!”  Dan looked forward at the crowd and saw that he was in deep shit.
            “Woa guys! Lets just calm down a little bit.  I brought some beer, I’m sure we can share it!” Dan wasn’t quite sure why he added the beer jibe – he knew no one there drank.  It seemed like it would loosen the tension a little.  It didn’t.

            Five minutes later Samantha held Dan’s limp body screaming for someone to call the cops.  Nobody moved.  They had just killed him and they didn’t know what to do.  They began to rationalize what had happened.  She heard someone say, “He was asking for it being that way.”  
            Samantha cried into his lifeless chest and a word came to her racing mind. Taboo.

The Evolution of a Story

OK so this is how my Halloween story developed over time...its kinda fun to see.


First Draft:

Blood made its way slowly down the captain’s face.  Blurring his vision to the horror in front of him.  His hands were tied behind his back.  His head bleeding from the cut that whatever had attacked his two crewmen and his first mate had hit him with.   He shook violently as he saw the old looking man bend over the huge caldron of boiling water.  This thing that had attacked him was bare-skinned from the waist up. He wore what seemed to be white sailor pants but were now drenched red and brown.  His skin was white, like he hadn’t been in the sun in years.  His long fingers were accentuated by the sharpened black nails that protruded from their ends.  His eyes were dark and evil.  When Captain Bradford looked into them he saw death. 
            This thing busied itself with preparations for something that the captain wouldn’t let himself imagine.  He thought of the ship that he had left ship wrecked just off shore this tropical island.  He was sure it was still dark outside, just hours since he and a few of his men had come ashore to find help.  Help that was now helping itself to them.  The captain laughed at the irony of it all.  A low cruel laugh that comes from a man who is losing his mind. 
            All his life all he had wanted to be was a captain of a merchant vessel.  Now all he wanted was to be home in England.  But he knew he would never leave this hellish place.  Wouldn’t even see the sun rise again.  He laughed because it was all over.  All his dreams had fallen to this nightmare that controlled everything present to him.
            “Captain!  By Jove Captain! Help me!” Samuel’s insane scream brought the captain to his surrounding.   Captain Bradford watched helpless as the thing dragged the half –dead first mate of the Patuna to the caldron.  A trail of blood was left behind him.  The creature laughed again.  A vicious and disgusting laugh that made the captain cringe further into the corner.   He turned his head away from the nauseating scene before him.
            The blood numbing scream that erupted from Samuel’s lips as his body was thrust into the boiling water forced the captain into insanity.  He laughed.  
            Eyes wide, he stood, the cut on his head throbbed but he didn’t feel it anymore.  He made his way over to the boiling body as the demonic figure watched him, interested in what he was going to do.  Then, extending his hand out to the beast he was helped into the caldron and without a wince submerged himself and Samuel never to return to the surface.
            Timmy, the hungry old man, smiled as he watched his stew brew and his stomach growled.

Second:


Blood slowly slithered down the captain’s gaunt face.  He felt a searing stinging above his right eye, the hot blood warming his cold skin.  His vision blurred to the horror in front of him.  His hands were tied behind his back.  He shook violently as he saw what looked like a decrepit old man bent over the huge caldron of boiling water.  This thing that had ensnared him was bare-skinned from the waist up. He wore what used to be white sailor pants that were now tattered shorts discolored red and brown.  His skin was white, like he had never seen the glory of the sun.  His long blackened fingers were accentuated by the sharpened yellow nails that protruded from them.  His eyes were dark yet they seemed joyful as if he was happy.  When Captain Bradford looked into those black eyes he saw his death.
            This thing busied itself with preparations for something that the captain wouldn’t let himself imagine.  He thought of the ship that he had left ship wrecked just off shore this tropical island.  He was sure it was still dark outside, just hours since he and a few of his men had come ashore to find help.  The help that was now helping itself to them.  The captain wanted to vomit at the irony.  For the last hour he had tried every way to escape but had failed.   
            All his life he had wanted to be a captain of a merchant vessel.  Now all he wanted was to be home in England.  But he knew he would never leave this hellish place.  Wouldn’t even see the sun rise again.  He cried because it was all over.  All his dreams had fallen to this nightmare that controlled everything present to him.
            “Captain!  By Jove…Captain! Help me!” Samuel’s insane scream brought the captain to his surrounding.   Captain Bradford watched helplessly as the demonic thing dragged his half–dead First Mate of the Patuna to the caldron.  A trail of blood was left on the dirt behind him.  The creature laughed a vicious and disgusting laugh that made the captain cringe harder against the wall.   He turned his head away from the revolting scene before him.
            A deafening dead man’s scream erupted from Samuel’s lips as his body was thrust into the boiling water forcing the captain to laugh.  He laughed a low cruel laugh that comes from a man who has lost his mind.  
            Slowly he stood, his body numb to the multiple injuries it had.  He limped and dragged his broken left leg over to the boiling body as the demonic figure watched him, interested in what he was going to do.  Then, extending his hand out to the beast he was helped into the caldron and without a wince submerged himself and the still screaming Samuel under.   The captain had always known he would die in water.
            Eroklin’s face distorted into an eager smile as he tested his brewing stew.  He hadn’t eaten in days and his stomach growled at the smell of a mouth-watering dinner.

Third:


Blood slowly slithered down the captain’s scared face.  His eyes too scared to shut.  Eroklin liked that.  The fear that his victims always showed on their faces.   It had been so long since Englishmen had made their way to Eroklin’s island.  As he prepared the first Englishman for his stew, Eroklin was somewhat drawn to this captain.  He was different then the others he had seen before.  Even as the blood engulfed almost half of his face, he made no attempt to wipe it away.   The captain wore nice clothes.  He was a dignified rich man.  Eroklin respected him for that, but hated that this meant he would be more fat then meat.  Eroklin wore old sailor pants, that at one time were white, but after almost 5 years of being trapped on this island had become brown and red.  Brown from dirt, red from his chosen food source.   Eroklin was a tired man, but he was strong enough to catch his scared prey.  His hands were discolored black, he didn’t know why, but he didn’t like them until he saw that they scared his prey when they saw them.  He had sharpened his nails to make them to accentuate that fear.  Eroklin looked at his reflection in the water that was on the verge of boiling in a large caldron.  His eyes, dark and lonely, showed the sublime happiness that comes as one prepares a feast.  He remembered seeing the same joy in his mother’s eyes when she would prepare Christmas dinner before his life had changed.  Back when his name was Joseph.  Now he was here, and he was preparing his own feast.
            Eroklin decided to save the captain till later and start with the younger, healthier Englishman.  He grabbed his knife and approached the unconscious man.  He stabbed him in the right shoulder, in the soft spot surrounded by bones.  Eroklin had discovered long ago that you could drag a full man’s weight using this spot and not have the knife cut through the body.
            The man awoke to the pain and screamed.  It was such an eerie sound even to Eroklin.  “Captain!  My God…Captain! Help me!”  The young man’s eyes were fixed on his captain’s face.  The captain pushed himself up against the wall, trying to get away from this scene that must have seen scarier then it really was.  But then again the men had tried to escape many times, they were valiant men.  The had fought for their lives, they seemed to have had a reason to live.  Eroklin didn’t care, he too needed to live.  Eroklin laughed to himself as he continued his work.  He loved the sound of utter desperation. 
            The sound that erupted from the dying man’s lips as Eroklin placed him into the boiling water was shocking even to him.  Some screamed like women, but this Englishman had a baritone scream.  Eroklin liked that.  Then Eroklin heard something that utterly surprised him.  The captain began to laugh a low cruel laugh; it was the laugh of crazy man.  Eroklin stopped and looked at the captain who was making his way to the caldron.  He limped heavily, the cracking of his right leg made Eroklin cringe; he hated the sound of a broken bone.  But the captain seemed valiant in his newfound insanity.  His full beard was darker on the right side from the blood that coated it.  With every step he came closer to Eroklin, but looked at the caldron.   Eroklin had never seen this before, was he going to try to escape?  Eroklin grabbed the knife again just incase.  But something told him that this man was broken, that he wasn’t there anymore.   The Englishman that was boiling reached out to his captain, but the captain reached out to Eroklin.  Eroklin took in the captain’s demeanor.  Did he want help into the caldron? Eroklin laughed, this was the greatest thing he had seen in years.  He grabbed the captain’s hand gently, the captain’s hand was cold.  Then the captain looked into Eroklin’s eyes and said “I always knew I would die in water.”  Then he laughed again as he half threw himself into the boiling water.  A little water splashed on Eroklin, burning him.  The captain grabbed the screaming Englishman and pulled him under the boiling water.   Eroklin watched as his stew began to take form, his feast preparations now underway.

Fourth:


Blood slowly slithered down the captain’s face.  His eyes too scared to shut.  Eroklin liked that.  The fear that his victims always showed on their faces.   It had been so long since Englishmen had made their way to Eroklin’s island.  As he prepared his stew, Eroklin was somewhat drawn to this captain.  He was different then the others he had seen before, Eroklin couldn’t figure out why.  Even as the blood engulfed almost half of his face, he made no attempt to wipe it away.   The captain wore nice clothes.  He was a dignified rich man.  Eroklin respected him for that, but hated that this meant he would be more fat then meat.  Eroklin wore old sailor pants, that at one time were white, but after almost 5 years of being trapped on this island had become brown from the earth and red from his food.  Eroklin was a tired man, but he was strong enough to catch his scared prey.  Eroklin looked at his reflection in the water that was on the verge of boiling in a large caldron.  His eyes, dark and lonely, showed the sublime happiness that comes as one prepares a feast.  He remembered seeing the same joy in his mother’s eyes when she would prepare Christmas dinner before his life had changed.  Back when his name was Joseph.  Now he was here, and he was preparing his own feast.
            Eroklin decided to save the captain till later and started with the younger, healthier man, an officer he assumed.  He grabbed his knife and approached the unconscious man.  He stabbed him in the right shoulder, in the soft spot surrounded by bones.  Eroklin had discovered long ago that you could drag a full man’s weight using this spot and the knife wouldn’t cut through.
            The man awoke to the pain and screamed.  It was such an eerie sound even to Eroklin.  “Captain!  My God…Captain! Help me!”  The young man’s eyes were fixed on his captain’s face.  Eroklin laughed to himself as he continued his work.  He loved the sound of desperation. 
            The sound that erupted from the dying man’s lips as Eroklin forced him into the boiling water was shocking even to him.  Some screamed like women, but this Englishman had a baritone scream.  Eroklin liked that.   The man splashed some boiling water onto Eroklin, burning him.  Eroklin retaliated with a club until the man was motionless.  Then Eroklin heard something that surprised him.  To his back he heard the captain begin to laugh a low cruel laugh; it was the laugh of a broken man.  Eroklin stopped and looked at the captain who was making his way to the caldron.  He limped heavily, the cracking of his right leg made Eroklin cringe; he hated the sound of a broken bone.  But the captain seemed valiant in his newfound insanity.  With every step he came closer to Eroklin, but didn’t take his eyes off the caldron.   Eroklin had never seen this before, was he going to try to escape?  Eroklin grabbed the knife again just incase.  But something told him that this man was broken, that he wasn’t trying anymore.   The captain looked at Eroklin like a lamb, dumb. 
            Eroklin took in the captain’s demeanor.  Did he want help into the caldron? Eroklin laughed, this was the greatest thing he had seen in a very long time.  Light flickered on Eroklin’s face from the cooking fire, allowing the captain to really see him for the first time.  The captain’s face changed dramatically.  His breathing quickened.  His hand reached out to Eroklin’s face.  Eroklin recoiled.
            “Joseph?” the captain whispered, seeing his friend who had died at sea years before.
            Panic rushed through Eroklin.  His hands shook.  He recognized him now, too.  But now it was to late, Joseph was dead.  Eroklin thrust the knife deep into the captain’s abdomen.  Warm blood flowed as Eroklin pushed his old friend Captain Bradford Heaton into the caldron.